Depression you baffle me! Are you just a catch phrase modern day psychiatry has labeled me with? What these imbelciles can't understand with their "minds" as, being "normal", is that it's just a label? Or maybe you label this to keep yourself getting paid and to make sure your jobs stay put? I do not know?! Or do I? Some may say depression takes your soul, but I think this "disease" lies more in the body and that's why these modern day head shrinkers can't figure out the cure, even if they really want to! Remember ladies and gentleman: ONE MAGIC PILL IS ALL YOU NEED, to get rid of your ills that probably built up over time. As I have "struggled", what ails me isn't a straight Depression I think, but more of a system of the body, mind and spirit being out of WHACK! Maybe instead of trying to tackle my "problem" rationally, that maybe I just needed to go a little CRAZY?! And not the crazy that means shunning society, wetting my pants, not listening to others. But more CreAtIve crazy, where we question our lives, quit our jobs that have no meaning, define who we are and not who society says we are.
Going "crazy for me meant throwing myself in the process of life and staying present to all the atrocities that human beings perpetrate upon each other, with my eyes wide open. I didn't need ever to watch a horror movie, because I got to watch the whole world "Fight". Whether over business, relationships, health care, cutting each other off, using each other to satisfy their own selfish needs. That was many moons ago, now I'm done trying to "fit in" and will be myself at all costs... That is me going crazy and being sane all at the same time.
Will the paragraph above help me to lift my "Depression", for me yes and if my new way of Life doesn't fit me then I will change it and not get stuck in one place. Always moving... When I get depressed I will keep trying to stay in the present moment and listening more to my body than my mind. Taking a nap in the afternoon, setting boundaries, cussing, staying up late or going to bed early depending on my mood. So I maybe depressed, but I will still live my life and that will be my ROCK!
#hiddenmeaning
Brett Drummond
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